Yoga || Heart (Universe)

One of the things I've been struggling with lately is the very nature of my yoga practice.  How can it be that a mere few weeks ago yoga was better than therapy (or Belgian chocolate); I was ecstatic to begin my journey as a yoga teacher; and I was feeling super motivated to share everything from Acro to Zen with anyone who would listen.  However, now IF I practice it's with dread and trepidation and I don't even own a yoga mat anymore.  [Don't worry, I'm sure someone in the Phoenix airport is finding his or her moment of bliss on my cherry red Jade mat.]

While pondering this state of things today, I asked myself what is it that I am hoping to get (and now missing) from my yoga practice.  As it turns out, there is an entire of universe of answers out there.  For you physicists out there on a quantum kick with me:  it's like there's a probability distribution of reasons to practice yoga.  EVERYTHING is possible and the exact reason CHANGES from moment to moment. 

For example, right now I desperately want to feel grounded, both physically and mentally.  But four years ago all I wanted from yoga was to pop my sacrum in a spinal twist.   In the beginning I came to yoga to be stretchier in ways that ballet couldn't accommodate (try putting a ballet dancer in half moon pose during his/her first yoga class!) Back then I wanted to be able to stand on my head - now I just want to be able to stand on my feet.   Some days I used my mat to block out the rest of the world but other days my mat was the only source of connection I had.  Now my mat is gone and it is up to me to choose where to go next.   Like the mysteries of the heart, the possibilities are endless if you are open to them.

Where does your yoga take you??